But God says, “Or despisest thou the riches of his goodness and forbearance and longsuffering; not knowing that the goodness of God leadeth thee to repentance? But after thy hardness and impenitent heart treasurest up unto thyself wrath against the day of wrath and revelation of the righteous judgment of God; Who will render to every man according to his deeds” (Romans 2:4-6). “In the day when God shall judge the secrets of men by Jesus Christ according to my gospel” (Romans 2:16). “And art confident that thou thyself art a guide of the blind, a light of them which are in darkness, An instructor of the foolish, a teacher of babes, which hast the form of knowledge and of the truth in the law. Thou therefore which teachest another, teachest thou not thyself? thou that preachest a man should not steal, dost thou steal? Thou that sayest a man should not commit adultery, dost thou commit adultery? thou that abhorrest idols, dost thou commit sacrilege? Thou that makest thy boast of the law, through breaking the law dishonourest thou God? For the name of God is blasphemed among the Gentiles through you, as it is written” (Romans 2:19-24).
The aggressive behavior of some of our leadership is legendary; either through first hand experience or rumors. Because close friends of Pastor will not be subjected to this tactic, it serves as a method of crowd control. A bid to baffle and keep all of us uneasy. After being shouted at by Pastor, we are often shell-shocked, offer a few respectful protests, then are silent. The scorn which we (especially the ladies) are treated in these private meetings is debilitating. We become desperate for Pastor’s favor, although we have done nothing wrong. We “stand down” to the manipulation/abuse in order to re-obtain our imaginary unity.
Bludgeoned into accepting Pastor’s verdict. Longing to see the “good cop” once again. Confused, coerced, cornered and finally cooperating with something that deep down, we know is wrong. Sinning against our own conscience. WARNING: do not agree with what you know is wrong. Stand your ground, and having done all, stand. (Ephesians 6:13,14)
But God says, “So I always take pains to have a clear conscience toward both God and man” (Acts 24:16). “I am speaking the truth in Christ—I am not lying; my conscience bears me witness in the Holy Spirit” (Romans 9:1). “For our boast is this, the testimony of our conscience, that we behaved in the world with simplicity and godly sincerity, not by earthly wisdom but by the grace of God, and supremely so toward you” (2 Corinthians 1:12). “The aim of our charge is love that issues from a pure heart and a good conscience and a sincere faith” (1 Timothy 1:5).